Sometimes keno jani kichu valo lage na..kichui na

As if i was suppsoe to be somewhere else...suppose to do something else...any other place and other time...anything else...anything special....

There was a time when I used to suffer from this kind of depression a lot...anytime and anywhere...during school..classes...in the idle evening or sleepless night...I used to hate being myself...I used to hate vereything...

Just wanted to do something..breathe freely...like driving a car in high speed on a empty road....going as close to nature as it could be...and most importantly...having someone who can take me away from this world of lonelyness...

I thought things changed...things should have been changed...then why is this feeling comeing back to me?Its killing me.....I cant stand...I wasn't able to stand it ever!